>> May 26, 2010

Have you ever had one of those days where you just need to take your frustrations out on something physical? Maybe a punching bag?

Out of the blue this week, (during my morning back-porch swing time) I was reminded of a day like that a few years ago. I don’t even remember what pushed me over the edge then, but I came home from work that day to an empty house and knew it was probably a good thing. To save my family from being my emotional punching bag when they got home, I headed to our neighbors to fire up their tractor (with previous permission) and mow the thigh-high grass on our back two acres. They weren’t home either so I was relieved I didn’t have to face anyone in my ugly state of mind.

Teeth clenched, I gripped the steering wheel and bounced about working out my frustration isolated from the world. Gradually I let it go into God’s hands. Praying, crying, singing… I relaxed and began to enjoy myself. I watched a hawk hunt for various rodents I stirred up. He got brave, trusting me, and sat very close to my path with his dinner in his talons waiting for it to quit squirming before he took off with it.

The sun began to drop lower in the sky and I suddenly had a bunch of birds flying all around me. I actually sang Zippity-doo-dah and felt like Snow White wandering through the forest with butterflies, birds, and bunnies dancing all around me. Except it was bugs, barn swallows, and plump field rodents.

While I mowed, prayed, and pondered, I stirred up food for the birds of the air. Sometimes God stirs things up in my life that I would rather forget. Things I’ve either stuffed and forgotten or dealt with and moved on.

I see now that He does that so I can speak and write to feed those He puts in my path. If His eye is on the sparrow, surely He knows what you need to feed your hungry soul. And if I need to stir up “stuff” I’ve dealt with in my life to be used of Him to feed others…so be it.

1 comments so far...Care to leave your thoughts?:

LauraLee Shaw 5/28/2010  

He is so personal, and I love that about Him. I could picture this whole scene, and I admire the fact that you can recall it then write it so well. Your ending kind of whammied me. In a good way. ;)

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